When I grow up...

Lately I have been up at night, unable to sleep for a variety of reasons, but I seem to dwell a lot on the future, my future. What am I going to do for the rest of my life to make it worthwhile.

Yes I see my family right there with me in all of this, but its more on what impact I will have on the world.

I have a dream of owning and operating an Irish Pub/(Euro Bar feel) with Amos. But thats his dream. Me. well... I have a lot of dreams.

• I want to be able to take pictures and to be recongized for it. Paid for my photograhers eye. 

• I want to open a Not-For-Profit that helps returning Military families transition back to civilian life. To have a place for those who have served in OIF/OEF with families to come back and live, while they look for work, navigate the VA system, and start their college educations. Those who have lived over sea's before they ETS are at a disadvantage for all those things becasue they are unable to take leave and do interviews. This would provide a place for them to get on their feet. 

• I want to be trained in alternative therapies, (CBT and talk therapy is find and all but it doesn't work for everyone and not me), I would like to be trained in EMDR, as well as art/music therapy or even Deep "yoga" meditation. Art and music is where I find my Zen when paired with deep breathing.

• I want to keep my family safe, happy and healthy. To be there for them. But to not forget my struggle to get where I am and how its feels to stay here. ~~Maybe write a book?? ~~