as cliche as it sounds, my kids are my everything. They are top of my priority list and nothing will take their place. Even amos (hubby comes 2nd to them in some cases). Very few places understand this and most of those who are not parents understand the depth of this statement. So when I took a job working for BSA as a Scout Program Aide, I committed myself to being there for other kids not just my own.
Right now though, I am trying to keep everything in perspective. I feel overwhelmed right now and I hope its just me trying to find the flow of things. 5 classes, a part time after school job, and life as a mother and wife. This is what makes up my day to day for the next 16 weeks. I need to pace myself and find what management skills i have to work for me.
Breath... breath....
Jocelyne is sick, fever and sinus congestion. Balian misses me. Amos and I rarely see each other due to conflicting schedules. Now more then ever I am relaying on the reason why we moved to Indiana instead of other places in the US. The support systems I have here, known as family. My Bro and SIL have really just stepped up and are helping us out so much. They are my emergency contacts for the daycare, and pick the kids up when I am late are work or in traffic, Even on the night I have my evening class. For them right now I am more then thankful I feel indebted.
If i wasnt thinking so long term I would of dropped 2 classes (even though Im only 3 weeks in) and would of taken time off work (even though I am still in the trial peroid where they or I can acknowledge its not a good fit) But i see the kids at the schools from when I shadowed and I know they need me. and I know my kids need me to but thats what family is for, to help each other out.
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